notes to self...
Dear Kate,
When it feels that big, leave home.
Leave the dishes in the sink. Leave the unanswered emails. Leave the shoulds and the have-to's and the musts and the endless to-dos. Leave the feelings of inadequacy. Leave the laundry in the machine and the dead flowers on the kitchen table. Leave all that crap all over the lounge room floor. Leave their spelling words and maths-mates and projects. Leave the pile of games that fell out of the cupboard. Leave the worries and the overwhelm and the deadlines.
Leave it all!
Walk out of the door and choose a direction. Any way will do.
Breathe deeply. All the way in and then all the way out. Even if the freezing air burns your nose and chest, get it in there.
Shake your arms and legs about and get the blood back into them.
Notice the tiny things. The oddly shaped things, the magical things, the new season things.
Meditate!
Hold hands and trust.
See it for what it really is.
And when you get back home you will see that everything looks different. Everything IS different. But still the same. The same but more manageable. More beautiful. More everything.
You'll be so glad you/I did.
xx